“Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.” Matthew 5:7
I remember back several years ago we were attending a small church and like many churches they asked us to take a spiritual gifts assessment. It was no surprise that my assessment showed that I had strong Pastoral, and Exhortation giftings followed closely by and administration gifting. I was satisfied with my assessment because it seemed true to who I was and wanted to be.
However, when the pastor comes over to you and says, “I was looking over your assessment and I am concerned…..” you start to get nervous, like sitting outside the principal’s office nervous. He then went on to explain that my mercy gifting was the lowest he had ever seen. He just couldn’t see how my pastoral side and my low score in the mercy category would walk hand in hand. He really offered no insight, he was perplexed but I was not bothered by it, or so I thought.
If I am honest I still struggle with this because there are times, I would like to be the person who helps and takes care of people. I would like to sit with friends who go through their treatments, and hold their hands and be there for them. Yet every time I think I can do it, I get physically ill myself. I also know that my face says all the emotions I feel so it is hard to sit in a room and hide my emotions and put on a brave face for a friend who is struggling. With all that said, it does not decrease, my concern, my empathy, or my desire to be a helpmate to them during this time. My Mercy gifting plays out in other ways. It is reaching out and letting people know I care, it is a note card sent, a text message, taking care of a tangible need for the family. Sometimes it is just stepping back and praying while respecting a friends privacy.
I would like to say all of these are the right ways, but I am still figuring this out. I am not sure why I still struggle with this, but I am constantly looking for ways to grow personally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. The fact that I am still asking the questions means, that I am still looking for the answers. I would love to hear your thoughts on being merciful and what it means to you.
Daily DIVAS Challenge:
- What does being merciful mean to you?
- How do you show Mercy?
- What ways have you been shown mercy?